Here’s another Zbrush/Corel Painter/Blah-blah-blah thingy! With overtime at work, a girlfriend, and the weather occasionally being good enough to finally take the motorcycles out, this bastard was created over the course of about a week, mostly after work (instead of getting anything that could be considered “sufficient” sleep.) As per the recent norms, I don’t know if I like this or not; more time to detach from staring at this bastard, and a little sleep is needed. And also, as per the usual norms, this is about all you’re going to get in the way of words. I’m off to bed!!!
Hello? Anyone still come around here? Turns out, I was alive the whole time! So procrastination, a completely fucked work schedule, and a complete lack of time has rendered me creatively infertile for too goddamned long. Sure, I scribbled an occasional doodle while at work, and its true that I often fell asleep to random art tutorials on Youtube, but I was starting to sink into the hole that only the truly unproductive can know the disgusting feeling of. It fucking sucked. With the realization that it has been over a year since my last post, it was finally time to try to start digging myself out, one painful shovelful after another, or risk reaching that point of no return.
Now before this gets too wordy, here’s what I got:
“While haphazardly hiking some poorly rendered forest, I stumbled across Maynard Sachs – the featherless bird of paradise wannabe – whilst searching for a clearing suitable to take a dump in. Dude was sleeping or standoffish, (I didn’t ask,) and was occupying what would have been a choice spot, so with a raised middle finger, I cursed his insensitivity. Dude was a grade-A prick.” – Created in Corel Painter
Have you ever taken a piss at some random place and just kind of stared at the speckles of paint on the wall? Or maybe looked closely at a series of water stains, or rust, or any other random bullshit. Kind of let your eyes go out of focus until your brain starts to find images in them? I have, way too often. I always regret that I can’t take a mental snapshot of what I envisioned, but I suspect that taking a pencil and sketchbook into a public piss-house might not be considered proper etiquette… There is a point to this.
So, I was horribly out of practice, and had absolutely no idea of what I wanted to make, thus I decided to force that needed creativity by emulating that random bullshit I mentioned above. I started by taking the cover off of my poor neglected Wacom Cintiq, fired up Corel Painter, and found a nice scratchy noise brush. Next, I beat the shit out of the canvass with fast random noise until it was covered with an explosion of fine lines. Finally, I stared at all of those strange marks until my eyes went out of focus and my imagination awoke. Using the pencil I began the long process of turning the noise into what my imagination saw. Look closely enough, and those random marks can still be seen, (I actually am quite pleased with how they give the illustration some character, and plan on utilizing this technique in the future.) That process guided me through the creation of the creature in its entirety.
With half of the canvass filled, I strained my eyes and saw a tree. This made sense, but felt very bland. The picture needed something else to help give it balance. I could make out the beginnings of a person in the noise, but who was it, and what would they be doing? And then it all came clear. The last and only self-portrait I have ever done was over 35 years ago (I’d imagine while I was still shitting my Huggies,) though I have “finished” it MUCH later, and what better reference availability than myself?! Fact is, I’m usually available the same times I’m available, so it all kind of worked out. As for what I would be doing, I decided to stick with what I know: drinking an energy drink and flipping someone off (yeah, I drive an hour each way to work on country roads…my middle finger gets its workout.)
As time was limited, I worked on this a few hours here and there every few days for about a month. In the end, I am happy with what I have done, but even happier that the little driving fire in me has not been completely extinguished. I have a newfound sense of urgency to create, will be starting a new job in a few weeks that hopefully allows me a little more personal time, and I can remember once more exactly how good it feels to just make something.
So here I am, over a month, drunk off my stupid ass, and absolutely nothing to show until now. I’m sure my drunk mind has some sort of totally rad social commentary to preach with this one, but hell if I feel like trying to decipher exactly what that might be right now. Without further ado, I present my latest drunken digital scribble:
“Shopchin” – a Drunken commentary of some sort of undetermined significance…or not…
That thing the swollen-eyed creature is holding is a jelly-dick. After that I am kind of uncertain just where in the fuck I was going with this. Something about capitalism or whatever in the fuck is the hot topic I’m sure. Be impressed though..I’m certain there’s a totally brilliant idea behind this one…
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